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coming back from camping this weekend with my high school students, i am feeling a little defeated spiritually...
essentially the most important thing i have to give is my relationship with Jesus but i never feel solid enough...i want my passion for Jesus to be contagious and rub off on everyone, but i often don't feel excited and giddy about following him myself.
i talked to my friend luis about this a bit, he said that passion for Jesus is present when you follow him in the mundane everyday life, not just the mountain top experiences, i thought that was really profound and helpful...my life feels mundane much more than it feels exuberant and fresh

my kids talked so much about wanting to hear from God...i understand that. i do too, and i often feel disconected, apathetic, etc.

i am reading this book called mystics and mirables... a little racy spiritually if you are into the max lucado type (which i am not) i long for transcendence, and deep communion with God.

"the saints differ from us in their exuberance, the excess of our human talents. moderation is not their secret. it is in the wildness of their dreams, the desperate vitality of their ambitions, taht they stand apart fromm ordinary people of good will." phyllis mcginley